Thursday, 12 October 2017

The waiting game

Hey my loves,
As I write this post I am currently 40 weeks and 4 days pregnant. . .  Yes I am overdue. By this point my controlling self was hoping that I would be cradling my baby girl in my arms experiencing the first few days of motherhood, but no I am still waiting.

Where many may think great more time for extra sleep, to rest and for alone time, I feel the complete opposite. These last few days have probably been the worst 4 days of pregnancy for me. 
Not that I have become sick or had weird cravings or anything like that but it's how I have felt mentally that has been more of the struggle.

I have always considered myself to be an emotionally stable person, quite rational and clear/level headed and I prided myself in being one of those ladies who was able to check their hormones before they got the best or should I say worse of them, however these last few days have been incredibly challenging for me emotionally and mentally. And as much as I have tried to hide and act like it's not affecting me it was time to address it. 

Pregnancy is a tough season for many women for many different reasons. For me it had been the most perfect journey till my due date came and went and there was still a baby in my belly. With most things in life when a date is set you are 99.9% certain whatever is set on that date will occur, but nop, not with pregnancy, theres a 4 week window, two weeks before and two weeks after. Now the two weeks before did not bother me it was the two weeks after that did and it was made worse by people commenting on how comfortable I looked and that the baby was MOST DEFIANTLY going to be late and even laughed at the statement (haha banter - I think not!) as someone who has been carrying a baby for in fact 10 months, I really wanted to meet my baby, (healthily and happily) and really wanted my body back to how it was.

It also started to get harder for me emotionally, (to which I blame pregnancy hormones). There was some days where I woke up in the best of moods hoping, praying that today was the day. I even managed to find a prayer online for labour induction, which I have now read 4 or maybe 5 times and when the day ended and there was no baby, I really felt like the big guy upstairs had abandoned me. Which did not help with the fact that I was feeling alone, with my husband at work all day literally leaving around 7am and sometimes back around 6pm or later I couldn't help but feel as though he too had abandoned me. Even though I knew the nature of his job and how far he has to travel before hand, I couldn't help but feel as though he did not want to rush home to spend time with his heavily pregnant wife. 

I felt alone, I felt ignored and I felt abandoned. By my husband, but mainly God. What I know of my God is that he is a God of love, a God who cares, a God who listens and knows our hearts desires. So if God knows I really want to meet my baby (more specifically on my due date) why am I still waiting? 

Earlier in my pregnancy I prayed that let YOUR will be done, let everything be done in your perfect timing and may I put my trust in YOU. It is easy to pray these things but oh so hard to actually do them. To really put ALL your trust in God, something you cannot see, feel or touch with your natural eyes. But I was reminded through a good friend last night, that HE is with me in the waiting!

Dear God,
Thank you for bringing me this far in my pregnancy, for protecting myself and my baby. 
For allowing us both to be healthy. You have brought me this far and I believe that in your perfect timing you will be with me and my baby in the labour and delivery process. 
I pray you are with the midwives and doctors who may attend to my baby and I. Let your presence and peace surround me in the leading days to me meeting my baby.
May I feel comforted on the days where I may feel alone or forgotten.
Thank you God that you are with me in the waiting!
In Jesus name, Amen x 

xo. Adorning Cultures

Friday, 22 September 2017

Fashion! - Mumma swag

Hey lovelies,

So before the weather got all unpredictable and gloomy on us, I managed to wear this cute fit. Getting to the end of this pregnancy cycle comfort is slightly trumping over style right now. So I have defiantly given the heels a rest unless I've gone to a wedding or super important occasion, otherwise it's been cute sandals ALL the way. So thank you Zara for coming out with some really cute sandals this season you the real MVP!!!

Side note for any expectant mothers out there, if you want to save your coins on the maternity wear, body cons (with good elasticity), oversized tops and anything loose fitting - whatever works with your personal style, will be your best friend and if your lucky enough you should still be able to wear as normal after baby comes. But defiantly TRY before you BUY! 
Sometimes those leggings that you thought would be stretchy enough especially if you went up a size just ain't stretchy enough. 

Tulle top: Zara | Vest top: Primark | Skirt: Misguided | Sandals: Zara (sold out)

Thursday, 7 September 2017

Issa announcement!!!

Hey my beauties x

So I feel like I apologies before every post for my lack there of and again sorry it's been a little while since I've posted but exciting news!!!!

Those who follow me on social media will know that hubby and I are . . . .

Expecting our first bubba and we are excited to announce to our loyal and any new readers that issa GIRL!!!

Being the super organised person that I am baby's room is all set and ready to roll for whenever she decides to reveal her beautiful face to us all as we draw closer and closer to my due date.

Pregnancy for me has been one of a pretty smooth and pleasurable journey, I've been fortunate enough to of experienced NO morning/day sickness at all throughout my pregnancy and to of had NO cravings which I'm sure is more of a blessing for hubby than for myself lol. 

Every woman's pregnancy is different and I couldn't but help feel a little robbed of the typical pregnancy experience especially when I haven't been able to pull a sick at work due to morning sickness *hides face*, but I can imagine that, dealing with that is not too pleasant either so I will count my blessings and be grateful that little miss has made this experience very easy for me. 

Things they don't tell you, when you're expecting. . .

1. Be prepared to become second when around friends and family; everyone literally greets my bump before greeting me and baby is not even here yet!

2. Your boobs are likely to grow a couple sizes and feel like watermelons during this growth spurt. Before I had announced to certain family members and friends they instantly noticed how big my boobs had gotten and raised questions of me expecting however I was so small for the first 5-6 months no one asked any questions. 

3. Your energy can go from 100% to 5% within in seconds even if you have had a good 10 hours of sleep and naps within the day. This has become more frequent for me in the third trimester, where I would have the most amount of energy and all of a sudden I feel as if I need my bed instantly. 

4. When you got to eat, YOU'VE GOT TO EAT!!! Either baby will tell you they're hungry by moving about excessively or you will begin feel nauseous, so always carry some snack with you when out and about. If your anything like me, when I get busy I can go hours without eating and when pregnant that is defiantly not the smartest of moves.

5. Since it's the thing that got you in this position in the first place lets talk about it! 
S E X. . .  Whilst pregnant is probably one of the best sexual experiences you'll ever have (thank me later).


Saturday, 24 June 2017

NO make up, still pretty!

Hey beauties,

So believe it or not but this is a bit of a tough post for me, I've always had an ongoing battle with my skin and when I mean skin I don't mean my complexion but I literally mean my face!!!
It's either I've got too many spots, dark circles around my eyes, or the pigmentation just seems off!

My sister who is one of my beauty inspirations, would often try and lace me with make up when I was younger like a practice doll and I would often respond to her "I don't need make up, my beauty is genetic not cosmetic", which I only half believed. 

As I became more and more in touch with my feminine side (I was a massive tomboy growing up), I did start to compare myself with other girls, looking at their perfectly flawless skin and secretly envying them. 

As the years went on, I discovered make up and actually how make up can, not just make you look "pretty" but can be a massive mask hiding insecurities, pain and hurt. People would often comment on how "pretty" I am, which I also hated, or felt really uncomfortable about, why? Because although I may of looked pretty on the outside I surly did NOT feel it on the inside. 

It's taken almost 10 years for me to change the way I have thought about myself and some real self healing. Can I say I am all the way there, NOP! But I am definitely on the more positive side of re-programming myself to allow me to understand and believe that I am PRETTY, with NO make up on, not even the eyebrows.  

So here's a few pics of me embracing myself with NO make up on, and I have to say it was quite liberating to do!!

#nomakeup #stillpretty


Thursday, 15 June 2017

Fashion! - Summer, where are you?

Hey beauties...

I know it's been a little while apologies, it has been an eventful few months to say the least. Building a bit more content for you all, as I don't want this to be a purely fashion blog, but want to give you some of that real, if you know what I mean.

But in the mean time. . . 

When living in London you legit don't know what the weather will be like on the same day let alone a couple days time. Just the other day I was out in a tee, jeans and sliders in the evening, now I've dragged out my long coats and almost my Uggs, but hopefully it won't get to that - eek!!

When it's supposed to be summer, but the sun is no where to be seen, throw on the layers and ripped jeans.

Coat: Old from ZARA | Faux Collar: ZARA | Bardot top: ASOS
Jeans: Topshop | Shoes: Old from Topshop
Choker: ASOS | Watch: Michael Kors | Tights: Primark 
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